Sunday, March 19, 2006


Have you ever felt like you're on the run but somehow you have no idea what you're runnin from? Paranoias funny like that, cos you know that for some reason - you have a guilty conscience.

Well my brothers, do we not all dream of a day where one man can live his life free from hatred and oppression? Yes, of course. But it aint my job to convince anyone, cos I am the voice of power. I just tell it like it is. Haha, so to all my haterz, and I can name a few - go to hell. Cos the church will cleanse me of my sins. I know I have done wrong father and for that I repent.

Thats the glory of owning a blog, this confessional booth is my own.

I have lied, but I haven't cheated. I have stolen, but commited no legal crime. I have done some shameful things, that makes me human.

I have only just realised that people dont understand me. If I shut up and suffer in silence I'm bein anti-social. But if I vent like this and let the whole damn world know my grief I am shunted for it. Disrespected and labelled "wierd" becuase I express a god damn opinion?? If you don't like me hate me already, just stop judging my standing. I speak from the heart here - I offer myself, plain and simple. The troubled mind of the next man. Do you hate me cos you envy me?

I never undestood this:

A man walks the same street every day, he keeps his head down, passes neighbours but no greetings and no talk. He is a lone man with no voice. Nobody bothers him.

A man walks the same street every day, he is proud and isnt ashamed to speak his mind. He greets his homies and fronts to his haters. He has an opinion and he uses it. He is shot dead outside his local corner shop.

Now, whats the difference between these two scenarios? One man still owns an opinion, but he just doesn't use it. Another man flaunts what he's got cos he aint ashamed but hes harmless with it. Either way he has an enemy bitter enough to end him for good.

The moral of this story is, no matter how much you hate me, you will NEVER take me down. Im always gona be here even if physically Im gone. I have made my mark and killin me aint gona change nothin. So that bein said, next time you "hate someone enough to pull the trigger" ask yourself "Is this gona change anythin?"

Tuesday, March 14, 2006


Sometimes its unavoidable. You realise you have demons and thatno matter what you do those demons aren't gona go away. We all have 'em, the difference being some of us acknowledge it and deal while others live in denial and refuse to suffer. I, for one, refuse not to suffer becuase my struggle creates the aura and attitude that entertains you here, today. And believe me peeps I wouldnt have it any other way. So go ahead and try to exorcise me, crucify me or cleanse me. I will still stand here the unmistakeable, undeniable motherfucker hated by many.

Don't cast your mindset to the depths of your soul, bring it out and let the whole world see it. Being unique is a beautiful thing. There's an individual style in all of us. USE IT.

Sunday, March 12, 2006


First I would like to say thanks to all the character-building time wasters I've met in my life. You've all been great. Now I'd appreciate it if you could be big enough to stand the fuck up and be counted for. Be big enough to say "Yes I saw an opportunity in you and I took it." Instead of latchin on n lyin to me some more thinkin you could get somethin more out of me like some kind of dumbass sponge. I'm sick of you punk-ass lame style whackos thinkin you can play Sub for a fool. You can't.

I say this becuase there have been too many people in my life who have thought at least once that they've had the upper hand on me and they didn't think I knew. Well now here's a wake-up call for you - I did. So why allow you to do it? Simple - becuase what goes around comes around. So how does it feel? knowing you got so far when all along I was the one playin on YOU...

Some people are so dumb.


I have a confession to make;-

I am a lier and a channel for bad news. You are best off walking away.

Now, this statement is supported by fact yes? Or is it? Those of you who don't know me will look on it with a completely unbiased view and logic will tell you "Yes, it has been stated by the person in which it relates to so it must be true." and, those of you who do know me will look now realise you do not know me at all.

Am I a lier? or am I a truth-teller? Is it possible to lie about a lie and therefore make it truth?

I lay down before you my testiment and will in my last chapter and closed the book. Now I open afresh and pick up somewhere I didnt leave off. Pen to the pad with no ball or chain.

This is Sub-Xero, no bias giving it straight. I am back.